8w3d

Oh how I miss food!! For anyone who knows me well they will tell you that food and I, we are VERY good friends. My main concern anytime I went anywhere was what were we going to eat.

I used to tell people it was because I was anorexic in highschool so I was just making up for all the food I missed out on. Mostly it was just because I liked to eat, nothing that was good for me of course, but I still liked to eat.

Today, food and I have hit a new low. NOTHING sounds good. I'm not eating because I like the taste of anything or because I'm particularly hungry. I'm eating because I know if I don't I will get worse.

I went to lunch today and I could barely choke down my meal. I had to eat in small bites and "rest" inbetween for fear of gagging. Now I'm back at my desk (2:00) and I feel sick. REALLY sick!!

I'm trying to snack on original pringles, I know not the best choice... but they're not really greasy and have a bland taste. However, they are not helping. My stomach just keeps doing flip flops. End over end... I can feel it.

Right now, I think throwing up would be a relief. Too bad I'm not brave enough to stick my finger down my throat. Besides, in the back of my mind, I know that will just make it worse, but oh how I want this feeling to go away!!